(If someone’s reading)
It’s been a while since I last posted something, saying that I was going to have more time to work on my blog. HA. Although that is in fact true, there’s so much going on to even want to write here.
You see, my job is writing and dealing with humans. That’s all I do for a living, and despite it sounds fairly easy (I’m not saying it’s not) it has been consuming my life and willingness for the past months.
What started as an exciting career has become not boring, but sad. Words are powerless and they are not directed to humans, they are only there for Google. And don’t get me wrong, it would be amazing being in the first positions of Google Search, bbbbuuuut… I don’t want to spend my life writing for an algorithm.
To be honest with you, I haven’t been writing much for the past years. What was a real dream when I was younger, has now been diluted among hundreds of other things that seemed more important or more interesting. Now, for the eleventh time in my adult life (and I’m only 27), I turned to myself and wonder: where do I REALLY want to be?
Listen, I’m not here to criticize people who follow SEO or do digital marketing for a living. I would never! But to me, words NEED to mean something, they MUST mean something.
I have to write from my heart, and I have to write about what really interests me. Although SEO can be really interesting, writing for clients to please an algorithm (always the same clients, always the same algorithm) is not for me – at least not for my spare time.
This being said, I really want to get writing again. But it will be in my own terms, not Google’s. If this means I’m never going to be read, so be it – I genuinely don’t care.
This blog was meant to be a way of expressing myself, not a way of creating content. In the past months, everything I’ve done was in the search for more economic wealth, whilst I was emotionally suffering as my emotions and real passions were being suppressed in order to get more money, or achieve a future where I won’t have to work. Has it done anything? No, it hasn’t. After months searching, worrying, and planning on how to make this blog popular, I have found myself not even wanting to write because it wouldn’t be GENUINE.
Now, I know this is probably not going to help anyone (let alone my purse), but at least I will be able to do what I have always wanted to do: writing to be myself. That’s the key. I don’t care if no one reads it. I don’t care if people disagree. I don’t care if someone thinks it’s a waste of time.
A waste of time would be keep running in circles when it’s obvious that you have no idea what you’re doing, because you are EXTREMELY lost in life.
Well, well. This wasn’t hard to write at all. Funny enough, I can uncover my feelings in front of a multitude (even if no one is reading this, I would still do it in front of a crowd) but I can’t bring myself to write a piece about mattresses. See, that’s where my point lies.
PS: By the way, I just opened a YouTube channel. It’s in Spanish but thought I would mention it anyway haha It’s called Wonder Sophie 🙂